Her Rants
Sunday, December 24, 2006
friday: last minute christmas shopping and rushing to get all the christmas cards out! so it was hours of endless walking around and fretting over what to get the besties. i've was so tired from the past couple of days of constant going out so after shopping i came home, took a 20 min nap and i was out once again! i had supper 2 times on friday! 1st - with alene and peiying; just catching up, reliving good old times, and walking from thomson to bishan! it reminded me of the times we walked from nj to coro to eat at prince. 2nd - with jj. he's back from paris and i haven't really talked to him in a bit so it was good catching up and stuff.
sat: after 4 hours of sleep i was up once again. tiff gavin gabriel and i were the first group of students to do the photoshoot that day. all those smu ads and prints, the ones with the funny jumps, are actually not that easy to do! they wanted us to jump into a certain pose so i jumped so many times i was actually perspiring by the end of the shoot! but it was really fun doing it with my friends! had lunch with gavin and tiffy and i guess we all miss the smaller group, it was so much easier to talk to each other then. got home, napped, and it was out to lyn's place for the party. it was good to finally meet her friends whom i've heard a lot about.
i had fun babe, thank you, and thank your parents for me. finally made my way to mk's place for the annual 4/1 gathering late at night and we slept at 5am just talking.
now: gotta get ready for christmas dinner with kelvin's family. *phew*
// hilda left the world behind.. // 16:05
Thursday, December 21, 2006
wed: we finally saw sun and clear blue skies (some parts of the day at least) today! i spent the entire day hanging out with lyn; had lunch at bukit timah and went back home to grab the party/stay-over essentials. it's the first time i've been to zouk with a party crowd in almost a year i think! gosh, it was so packed even at 10pm. it's a great feeling to be back there with friends and to let your hair down! bumped into a couple of smu people and old friends too. jess let's go when you're back!
today: i stayed over at lyn's like how i used to after partying, so we went to town together. i met ron and david and it was good to actually sit down and catch up, since we could barely hear each other at zouk the night before. hopefully we get to do that again before they fly off to different continents once more.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:59
Saturday, December 16, 2006
friday: had breakfast with dicky at simply bread early in the morning. haven't had time to talk to him since the first time i really got to know him at the library. i miss the bukit timah stretch. sometimes i wish we didn't have to move to the city campus. the cinnamon bun at simply bread is awesome! dicky gave me a lift home and i slept all the way until it was time to get up for dinner. i had supper with kelvin at chijmes and it was good talking and i hope things will improve from there.
today: i missed training completely because i was home late the night before. it's just as well, for it was raining and the field was a bitch. kinda like wednesday's training, when my flipflops got stuck in the mud 4 times while i was making my way across the field. eeewwwwwwwwwwwwww. met some of the house reps for dinner and we went to watch yunqi perform at the esplanade. i haven't seen some of them in the longest time and it's great to know that they're all doing well! for now, i'm tired. goodnight!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:59
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
i'm back from bangkok! arrived at the airport late on sunday evening.
it wasn't all that fun actually. the shopping isn't as good as i expected it to be.
it's the whole expectation thing i suppose, after hearing everyone talk about it as though it's a shopping paradise. and i thought traffic in new york was bad, but bangkok seemed worst! and all the taxi drivers try to rip people off.
it wasn't all bad of course. there were pretty interesting sights, even though we did visit a lot of touristy places. we met lynette there too! plus i did come back with some pretty good buys (although not as many as i expected).
slept late on sunday night and i finally got to meet lyn and jess on monday. we haven't hung out together in the longest time! it's always me-lyn, me-jess, jess-lyn. but monday was our day and we had a great time catching up. i love my besties!
lyn and i surprised tiff at her place later on in the night because her birthday present was way overdue.
happy belated birthday once again tiffy. hope you liked the present! all three of us went over to spencer's place later and tiff sneakily left a box of cupcakes at his door (aww... so sweet)! it was pretty funny how a bunch of giggly girls were standing outside his place trying hard not to be seen. :)
// hilda left the world behind.. // 00:39
Sunday, December 03, 2006
i did what i had to do.
it was something that had to be done eventually.
i realised it much too late.
it might not have caused so much damage earlier.
i hope you see this is good in the long run.
it doesn't mean i'm not hurting now.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 01:17
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Be too large for worry,
Too noble for anger,
Too strong for fear,
Too happy to permit the presence of troublethat was something a friend told me years ago.
it was something i tried living by.
but i look back now and i'm not sure if i'm living it right.
perhaps it's because i'm fighting a two-prong cold war with my mum and sister.
or maybe i'm just not the same person i was 2 years ago.
back then when i felt i had it all. maybe i didn't, but at least i was happy.
i'm not doing the things i used to do, things that i miss doing.
i'm not seeing the people i miss, and i miss them a lot suddenly.
i miss having a really tight group of friends i could call on any time of day.
i miss acting silly, idiotic and sometimes even a little bimbotic, in front of people who won't judge me.
i miss not giving two hoots about boys for a while.
i think it's just school.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 00:06
