Her Rants
Thursday, June 30, 2005
i'm up early today and for the first time in days, i actually slept well. i miss my bed!
lynette ng. i got your message and thank you for finally giving me some recognition. :) i'm meeting both lyn and jess later. can't wait!
just kinda thought about what huiling said. "you're looking for someone who's perfect but he might not be perfect for you." girl, all the best with you and you-know-who. and i've really gotta hand it to you for all the guts you showed before jumping into the water - it was about 2 storeys high man (yea i was quite chicken, i only jumped after she did).
my sister's 21st birthday is like...tomorrow! but she's not the kind who wants to throw a huge party so we're just having a nice, quite family dinner tonight. i've gotta get her present today or tomorrow. my brother's been pre-occupied with CTs to buy it while i was away. she's actually being NICE to me for once - she's making me breakfast! :D meeting xin after dinner at walawala, don't play me out ahh!!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 10:17
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
i've returned from tioman a very tired but happy girl. :)
i won't write day1, day2.. because there's just so much to write about. but i've come to realised my group of secondary schoolmates will probably be close friends for life.
the journey to and fro was really tiring but the place itself was breath-taking. okay maybe not the PLACE, but... the water. i'll forever remember the clear, blue-green waters; the huge variety of fish that tickle your body when you tempt them with bread crumbs in the water; the thousands of sea urchins lying on the seabed; the large purple oyster that sam (our guide) went to disturb - all these were a first for me. oh yes, not to mention the sunset. i've never seen the sky look prettier!
of course there was the 12-inch sausage; the reading-a-magazine-with-a-drink-in-hand-by-the-pool-and-by-the-beach experience; the very exhausting seafood dinner when we were frantically chasing away cats and houseflies; the frequent visits to the souvenir shop where we became friends with the lady boss and whose daughter is in love with me; the hours spent chatting away in the cafe and the visit to the rock fall where we dipped out feet into what seems to be fresh spring water.
of course there were a few spoilers. our aircon had alot of problems, the island is bug-infested, our guide was pretty touchy when showing us corals in the sea and i got my period. but it was overall, a really good trip.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 19:56
Saturday, June 25, 2005
i am not going shopping for the next 2 weeks i swear.
i feel so guilty spending so much money today but i'm happy with my new acquisitions!
i especially like my mango dress (yes, jess and i braved the crowds and actually went to the sale)! and i hope i get permission from my mum to buy new lingerie (coz then i won't have to pay) because we were at tangs and they were so pretty! i'm happy for jess coz she got sooo many things for the amount she spent. ahhh. okay in short i'm really happy with the shopping but that's it.
no more man. i'm returning my atm card!
batman begins is pretty good really, and somebody made me really happy today. heehee.
on top of that, lynette's back!
xin, i don't stay mad at my friends for long and really you don't have to make up for it, 'coz yea, what are friends for right?! :D
i've gotta be up at 4am in the morning to leave for tioman and i'm still packing.
adios ppl!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:58
Friday, June 24, 2005
so i'm doing nothing on a friday afternoon and it's a luxury.
except maybe i DO have things to do but they're not things i wanna be doing! *wails*
okay let's see... my turn to do the housework this week and i've gotta do it today because i'll be busy tomorrow and i'll be gone on sunday.
i've gotta pack my bag for tioman and i'm completely lost because my period is getting irregular and i hate packing.
i've gotta get all this done before i meet xinhui for a drink at walawala.
i'm feeling so lazy i don't even wanna get my ass off this chair to get my own lunch.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 12:57
Thursday, June 23, 2005
the mango sale started today and i spent 10 mins at wisma-mango before i walked out. goodness. the 4 letter word starting with "S" makes singaporeans go crazy. people were jostling to get around the store! i so hate crowds. so instead of returning home with stuff from mango, i came back with a top from fcuk. yea there was only me and this other lady there. :)
went from town to holland village to IMM in our horrendous and erratic weather. the sky was almost cloudless and i thought i could seek refuge in the IMM-shuttle bus but it was an oven in there. xin agrees, right right? i was just sitting there and i was bloody perspiring?! i had such a horrible day.. from the time i woke up all the way until i finally reached xin's place, the only consolation being i bought stuff. bleah. things got better though - aircon!! hung out at xin's, just watching the OC and her play some car game. oh girls...
i've got the second season of the L Word.
i just got out of an argument with my sister yet again. she can be such a selfish bitch at times. i wish i had an elder brother. they tend to dote on younger sisters, no?
// hilda left the world behind.. // 20:45
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
i've just finished the trilogy by Dave Pelzer. gee i cried so much while reading it. it's truly depressing. very powerful though. i've never thought much about child abuse until now. scaryyy...
// hilda left the world behind.. // 19:55
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
i finally got down to doing my pre-enrolment medical checkup yesterday and boyyy.. the queue at the RMG was long - i arrived at 2.30pm and left only 3 hours later. goodness. well at least i had my book and my mp3 player with me. bumped into shiqin (i hope i got her name right), this vj girl who was at my table on Social Night. she's going to smu too!
went shopping a little with my sister and my mum today before going over to xinhui's place to watch coach carter! her brother arrived in SG yesterday and he brought the dvd back with him so yep, i was happy! it's a good show really... made me think back on training and all quite abit.
got an sms from shanice today. woohoo. looks like that girl chanced upon my blog. hello to you! :) oh and hasan too!! i'm so super proud of him! for coming so far in terms of fitness and all that! marksman! woohoo! i kinda miss hahahasan...!
now this, a conversation with my dad last night.
dad: are your legs getting longer or your shorts getting shorter?
me: what do you think dad?
really daddy, it's not my fault you and mum decided to give me legs longer in proportion to my torso such that each time i put something on, it shows more leg than it would on other people, save for people like jess. geez.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:34
Sunday, June 19, 2005
i'm in the midst of replying david's email but i got so tired i finally decided to finish the rest of it some other time. yes you my friend, always making me think about your life's philosophies. i need time to evaluate it. hehehe.
zzz.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 21:25
i've realised the only way i can sleep enough, is if i sleep early at night.
there's NO WAY i can sleep past 9.30am, be it a weekday or a weekend.
basket. i'm so bloody sleepy right now.
met lyn and jess at holland village and we had crystal jade xiao long bao! yea the other day when xin and i had dimsum they didn't have the xiao long bao there. so much to catch up with my girls. jess is going away for her NUS camp tomorrow and lyn's going to ipoh. i'll miss them both!
hmmm. i'll have alot of time to myself this week. that can't be a bad thing. :)
// hilda left the world behind.. // 20:43
Saturday, June 18, 2005
i slept soundly the whole of last night and i woke up at 11.30am this morning! the first time i've actually slept long and good since i left for ipoh.
met alene, russ, shaun and daryl for some bloody good indian curry at Samy's and boyyy.. i think i'm losing my touch with spiciness. darn. i don't wanna lose out to shaun when we do get down to a proper challenge, hehe. that fella gave me one month to train up - while he's away in australia. take care over there man!
alene and i walked around town abit and had a drink at paragon where we bumped into lynette and alan! i'm fated to meet her - saw her in town 2 days in a row! alene's pretty friend (i think her name's anastasia) joined us later on and the both of them walked me to taka.
met huiling and xiuli there and esther came a little later. so embarrassing though. esther and i were wearing the same top, similar brown skirts and white bags. it was really quite a sight! too bad none of us brought a camera today. jiawen came pretty late but she won tickets to the premier of Initial D so yes, i reckon she and esther are gonna be camping to see jay chou walk down the red carpet. oooo.. one more week to tioman!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:13
Friday, June 17, 2005
met xinhui for lunch at crystal jade. i love dimsum!!! dimsummmm!!! oh i bumped into lyn in town too. hehe.
daniel was
really sweet as a date though he turned up a little late. the whole night he took care of me. some of the other guys left their dates alone and all but yea, he was such a gentleman. saw alot of people there - a couple of the house reps and njcians, secondary school friends and even primary school friends! oh yea.. my cousin denzyl was there too! the highlight of the evening has gotta be when one of the regulars took the opportunity to propose to his girlfriend. mannn that was sooo sweet! all in all it was quite alright.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 12:59
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
i went back to bukit timah and had my favourite thai tomyam noodles.
i miss that place! the entire bukit timah stretch!
shopped a bit and did some catching up with lyn and jess.
we watched mr and mrs smith! JOLIE IS SOOOO HOTTTTTTTT.
i'm so freaking tired right now.. and tomorrow's another long, long day.
i wanna go to bed but i just read something that got me thinking.
i totally understand how she feels, except, i knew it wouldn't change a thing. that feeling is still somewhat familiar. i'm thankful i managed to get out of it. it would suck to be in her place.
i'm happy to be feeling the way i feel now.
so don't rush me. i'm not ready to give it up yet.
now thinking back on what jonathan told me about him..
that his biggest regret was letting me go?
yea i hope he regrets it for life.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 22:59
i'm back in one piece. :)
was a little worried myself, travelling back alone and all.
my last day started off with dimsum for breakfast-cum-lunch.
uiaik drove us to the perimeter of ipoh where the hills and caves are.
the caves are huge! and we climbed the stairs all the way up.
if alene were there.. i don't think we would've made it up the hill.. hehehe.
goodness... it's was scorching hot in that part of ipoh!
went back to his place to watch this korean vcd (can't quite remember the title but nvm) and then, i had to shower and pack my bag.
i had seafood for dinner! woohoo!
ui aik really took care of me there man.. so did his friends.
eligible bachelors up for grabs!
thanks guys. :)
the ride home was pretty uneventful but i saw hundreds of stars!
i was at 90+ when i lost count and by then i wasn't even half done.
the sky looked so pretty.
oh, my parents forgot i was coming home early so i was locked out for half an hour. a bit anticlimax. oh well.
i had alot of fun in ipoh but it's nice to be back. :)
// hilda left the world behind.. // 11:02
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
i drove! woohoo!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 01:02
Monday, June 13, 2005
my first day at uiaik's is almost over.
we arrived at 5am and slept all the way until 11am.
breakfast-cum-lunch was at the stadium place where lyn said there's good food.
woohoo. yea the fried kway tiao and the wantan mee were not bad.
there was a fly in my soya bean drink though.
ui aik drove us around the entire day and we caught two movies - Madagascar and Kungfu Mahjong in cantonese. both were funny! we're going for ipoh hor fun soon and we might be meeting his friends for supper later, one of whom is yuensean's distant cousin. small world eh. heheh. hopefully yueansean can drive down from penang tomorrow to meet us or something.
right now i'm trying to zap mozzies with this electric racket kinda thing while ui aik uploads the pictures we took today. he's a great host!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 19:34
Sunday, June 12, 2005
i'm almost done packing.
meeting yc and ui aik later and they'll get to try my wonderful brownies. heh.
hmm. still don't know if i'll be meeting kris.
i'm gonna sleep on the coach tonight.
i'm sooo tired.
see you all on wednesday!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 14:20
oh what a busy weekend!
immediately after work on friday, i met russell, shaun and peig. the last 2 being horribly late as usual. haha. on the way to cine russ and i saw a lot of njcians. mostly juniors. it was nice seeing them and to know they're doing well. kairu, thanks for the msg you left in my guestbook. :) you guys take care of yourselves eh!
i thought i was good at air hockey. well that's prob because i was playing against lyn and jess previously. mannn.. i got trashed this time around. first by peig and shaun. then, by shaun and russ. oh well. it was fun though. ming, isaac and alene joined us later. ahh.. i miss peig and alene. really haven't seen them in awhile. oh yes. everyone likes my brownie. :D
today.
i forced myself to wake up at 9am to bake a second batch of brownies. by the time i was done, i was late in meeting justina for lunch. the whole CIP carnival thing went pretty well. as most big events are, the few hours before was a complete disaster, but it worked out fine eventually. the youths were really cooperative. but mannn.. i never knew dishing out food to people could be
SUCH a tiring affair, with no help at all from fussy, kiasu old folks and a particularly lazy, two-faced RC fellow.
by the time i met lyn and jess for late night shopping, i realised i hadn't sat down and rested since like.. 3pm. my legs were aching while shopping but it was a very fruitful trip nonetheless! woohoo! after supper with alan and lyn, i came back a very happy girl! tired, but happy. :)
i've yet to pack my stuff for ipoh. i think i'll do it in the morning.
adios dear friends. you'll know when i get back.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 02:12
Friday, June 10, 2005
it's my last day at work today.
5 months is more than enough, for a temp huh?
the monotony of my life is (finally) gonna be broken.
i think a lot of people are gonna miss me though.
my favourite noodles stall auntie wants me to go back and visit often (okay fine, maybe for her it's the $$, but i've been her patron long enough for her to know my usual order and to serve me ahead of her other customers).
dessert was on the house today 'coz the stall uncle knew it was my last day. so cool, he doesn't like me to address him as 'uncle', he thinks of himself as my 'brother' instead. haha.
chris, donna, kevin and thomas gave me a parting gift.
how sweet. :)
i'm glad they liked the brownies.
yes. in a weird way i'll miss that place.
but i've been there long enough.
it's time to move on to the next phase of my life.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 15:51
oh my this is quite hilarious! :D
// hilda left the world behind.. // 08:37
Thursday, June 09, 2005
omg omg! i'm going to see my darling jess on tv soon!
okay i dunno why i'm so excited over it.. but..whatever!
i can't wait! haha
aye. i'll be trying out a new brownie recipe tonight. i hope it works well.
coz i wanna bake another batch of brownies on saturday.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 10:46
i caught Apparition, together with xinhui and vida last night. that's the last Arts Fest performance i'll be watching this year and it was so cool, the way they blended dance and technology together... i've never seen anything quite like it! besides that, i enjoyed talking to vida about smu and all. so yep, i had a really wonderful evening last night. oh thanks xin, for the kinder surprise. :)
lynette, i totally understand how you felt. sigh. dear friends.. i keep my mobile switched on 24/7 so that if ever anyone of you is suicidal, call me and i'll be there as quickly as humanly possible. but
please don't take advantage of me and call me at 4am for nothing. it took me a good half an hour to get back to sleep. so please be considerate. sleep's a luxury i can hardly afford.. don't rob me of it!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 08:39
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
jialing just came over for lunch! but.. she was in pink. wearing a short skirt. carrying a handbag. dangling pink earrings. OMG WHAT HAS SMU DONE TO HER!? haha. thanks for the present angel. oh i got my 6th pair of earrings in a week from her too. this pair of really cool feather ones that she said i'll have to go to school with! heheheh. i think i'll be seeing her pretty soon. in smu. :)
// hilda left the world behind.. // 14:08
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
i'm so happy!
i got 3 pairs of earrings from lynette last week.
and today, i received another 2 from michelle and clara!
i'm really really happieeeeeeeee! :D
thanks a bunch!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 21:01
hello to wenjie! i know you visited my blog last night at 10+pm in perth. haha. i'm psychic. eh come back soon. we want our presents. :D and my cute wakeboarding instructor from bintan's back! woohoo. hopefully i'll get to meet up with kris once more before he leaves for london.
hmm. i've been told to sit back and enjoy the ride; that it's my privilege. but i feel awful doing it. i know it's at the expense of other people. i hate it, knowing i'm hurting someone else. i wanna rip my brain and heart out sometimes. perhaps then i wouldn't think or care so much.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 15:15
Monday, June 06, 2005
oooooo guess who came down and surprised me at my office today?!
one of my favourite bitches. woohoo! thanks lyn! i love youuuuu!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 17:28
Sunday, June 05, 2005
so the houserep outing turned out to be just a meeting between haogen, russell and myself. lyd was arnd the area and we spoke for a bit. met yunqi just before i left town too.i don't wanna organise further outings already. next time someone else can do it and just let me know the time and place.
it was nice catching up with them. especially russell. goodness, he's been MIA for so long. i hope he gets OCS. muahaha. :) caught The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy with haogen and i saw my hollister shorts! i got it i got it!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 20:17
my left index finger has been twitching the entire day. weird.
and i woke up in the middle of the night last night because i had a MAJOR leg cramp. it was painful!
hmm. yea totally random stuff. off to bed now.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 02:22
Saturday, June 04, 2005
cip today. we finished the banner much earlier than expected. :)
xin drove me from novena to tanjong pagar in a manual car and the ride was quite exciting, right xin? hahahahah. i like her better in an auto. nevertheless, thanks for the lift!
i met my girls for a quite nice dinner actually. haha. the food was good! then we made our way to eskibar! apparently it was featured in the papers today. what a coincidence. we've planned this day for a week now. it was cool inside, literally. we were just chilling. hehehe. then lyn and i had a craving for chips so after jess left, we walked to the nearest 7-11 and got a packet. mannn.. that whole area is creepy at night. there were all sorts of weird beng-ish looking people. but all in all, it was a pretty good night out.
i'm meeting some of the house reps tomorrow. :)
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:48
Friday, June 03, 2005
i met genevieve and serena last nite. pretty messed up lives huh?
don't think so much my dear friends.. that's all i can say.
one more week to go. and i can kiss the office goodbye.
but well. i think i'm a workaholic.
i'm already beginning to wonder what might happen to the HR people i've been liasing with, after i leave. 'coz some of them, i've grown to like. it's more than just doing business with them. ah well.
lynette! could you collect my A Level certificate pleaseeeeeee? i just received the letter.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 08:46
Thursday, June 02, 2005
so i'm at work now and it's amazing how some HR people are so fucking lazy. i'm not an employee over at THEIR company but they're asking me to fucking do their job for them?! it's amazing how they can open their mouths to request 'coz prior to that they were so fucking rude?! so what if your fucking company deals with hundreds of thousands of dollars? like i give a fuck.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 10:50
met up with jonathan last nite and he finally told me the whole story. dammit i can't believe mike was right the whole time! haha. but jon really does seem happy, and i'm happy for him. years before i might've thought he'd been quite a jerk but i guess i know where he's coming from. the grass is always greener on the other side, he reminded me of that last night. hmm.. we'll see how things go on my side i guess. and jonathan yong, if you're reading this, thanks for the feather (i really like it though rachel said it's the smallest) and please leave a guestbook message with your url yea? oh, and update me this time around! :D
jessicaaa laiiiiiiiii.... your legs looked incrediblyyyy hottttt (yea i read lyn's entry and saw the pics). i want!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 09:00
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
oh i forgot to mention! i had nice dessert with my girls when they came down to have lunch with me yesterday. lyn, i read your entry. and you look like a BUG! haha. so when i crash at jess's in NUS i'll get an idea of what your room looks like in melb? and yes.. i totally agree with what you said. we don't need people to buy us expensive stuff. we're independent women! :) and jessssssss... i wanna see your steal of a jacket!
it's june. half a year has passed. jess is leaving this sat. i'll be gone to ipoh soon after she's returns. when i'm back, jess has got camps and it'll be lyn's turn to leave for ipoh. when they're done, i'd have left for tioman. when i do come back, it's my sister's 21st and smu matriculation. which leaves...very little time for the 3 of us. plus lyn'll be busy packing. soon, mid-july will come. and then jess and i will be really, really sad. :(
// hilda left the world behind.. // 12:09
so i had dinner with xinhui last night. before that we kinda just bummed around waiting for vida's friend to arrive. not bad not bad. i haven't had jap in awhile. thanks xin. we were walking walking and we found ourselves at toys'r'us playing with light sabres! those things are actually pretty cool. hehehehehe. got a lift home from an army boy on the way back to camp but even then, i was exhausted by the time i got home.
some pretty random stuff.
my idiot sister is the most selfish cow i've ever met. it's ridiculous that i have to borrow from xinhui what i have at home!?
my hollister shorts is gone. i'm mourning.
my new moisturiser makes me smell like a mango.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 08:48
