Her Rants
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
aye yes. mer's right to a certain degree but i have to say, if i don't have things to say about people/stuff/events, this blog probably won't exist. haha. and there's a stark difference between being a chao mugger and being a person who knows how to balance his or her life. thanks punked kid for the input. i just need to release some pent up anger. most of the time, i forget about it after a while. haha.
thanks ui aik! i'm really quite impressed by him man.. i never knew he was so far-sighted. haha. he always acts like a kid but today, i realised there's so much more to my captain! alene, if you're reading this, really, i'm not kidding okay. haha. i think we spent a couple of hours in total just talking about stuff and yea, i'm really very impressed! oh but so irritating, this guy walked into starbucks and when he saw me he made this phone call. i guess he was trying to be discrete but he didn't exactly succeed and i could hear his every word. i got annoyed coz i don't wanna be labelled as 'somebody's' girl. i mean..hello? i belong to no one. period.
ah! though wenjie and jiawen didn't come today (wenjie!!! how could you pang seh us for your classssss.. *sob*) it was still really fun! initially bishan park was like, quite lifeless, maybe coz it was still pretty early. but as night fell more people came and the whole place was so brightly lit with candles and lanterns! it was such a pretty sight! and it was so funny, coz some of the kids have those battery-operated lanterns that have melody accompaniment and esther thought it was somebody's phone ringing!? it was hilarious!
i only realised today that francis is so innovative! he came up with so many funky experiments with the candles and we had a few silly competitions, like, see who could light all the candles in the shortest time? and err.. who could extinguish the most candles with one breath? both of which i won. hahaha!! ..okay.. hee hee. cheap thrill. oh plus xiuli brought a variety of mooncakes! there was like.. strawberry.. and this meat flavoured one.. cool right? we hung our lanterns on the tree and played with fireworks, so fun! when we were leaving, the whole place was so smokey it looked like a scene from some ghost story and the guys were trying to scare us girls. haha. oh but it was really so enjoyable, it's like being a kid again.
it's back to school tomorrow and i'm really not looking forward to the release of the prelim results. don't think i'll be updating for a while. ciao.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 22:21
Monday, September 27, 2004
i don't really care if anybody from my class reads this. better still if they do. but seriously, i can't wait for jc life to end so i don't have to see them again (ever again!). i can count on one hand how many people from s10 i'll actually bother to keep in contact with after jc so i guess that says alot. i don't understand how some people can be so super grades-oriented, not want to go for prom, low EQ, absolutely boring etc etc etc. the list goes on. i resented my sec 3/4 class in the first year but hey, i'm like so close to them now. but i don't foresee the same thing happening with s10 coz they're just fucking boring people (with a few exceptions). oh and if any of them are reading this, for the record, some people have a wardrobe that consists of more than just boring tshirts and jeans. i hope they were paying close attention during the dress to impress talk coz i think most of them need it. not just the dressing bit. they're SOOO lacking in the SOCIAL DEPARTMENT as well. huiling told me to take lynette and migrate to another class; haresh said that they soo don't look like people from our class. what can i say? and yes, kaimin's right, what's up with people who won't participate in school events and then diss the school for being a boring place?
i wish my class had more funky people man. like derek and kaimin's class. so fun! ah whatever. 2 more weeks. then it's good riddance s10.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:41
i don't really care if anybody from my class reads this. better still if they do. but seriously, i can't wait for jc life to end so i don't have to see them again (ever again!). i can count on one hand how many people from s10 i'll actually bother to keep in contact with after jc so i guess that says alot. i don't understand how some people can be so super grades-oriented, not want to go for prom, low EQ, absolutely boring etc etc etc. the list goes on. i resented my sec 3/4 class in the first year but hey, i'm like so close to them now. but i don't foresee the same thing happening with s10 coz they're just fucking boring people (with a few exceptions). oh and if any of them are reading this, for the record, some people have a wardrobe that consists of more than just boring tshirts and jeans. i hope they were paying close attention during the dress to impress talk coz i think most of them need it. not just the dressing bit. they're SOOO lacking in the SOCIAL DEPARTMENT as well. huiling told me to take lynette and migrate to another class; haresh said that they soo don't look like people from our class. what can i say? and yes, kaimin's right, what's up with people who won't participate in school events and then diss the school for being a boring place?
i wish my class had more funky people man. like derek and kaimin's class. so fun! ah whatever. 2 more weeks. then it's good riddance to s10.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:00
i don't really care if anybody from my class reads this. better still if they do. but seriously, i can't wait for jc life to end so i don't have to see them again (ever again!). i can count on one hand how many people from s10 i'll actually bother to keep in contact with after jc so i guess that says alot. i don't understand how some people can be so super grades-oriented, not want to go for prom, low EQ, absolutely boring etc etc etc. the list goes on. i resented my sec 3/4 class in the first year but hey, i'm like so close to them now. but i don't foresee the same thing happening with s10 coz they're just fucking boring people (with a few exceptions). oh and if any of them are reading this, for the record, some people have a wardrobe that consists of more than just boring tshirts and jeans. i hope they were paying close attention during the dress to impress talk coz i think most of them need it. not just the dressing bit. they're SOOO lacking in the SOCIAL DEPARTMENT as well. huiling told me to take lynette and migrate to another class; haresh said that they soo don't look like people from our class. what can i say? and yes, kaimin's right, what's up with people who won't participate in school events and then diss the school for being a boring place?
i wish my class had more funky people man. like derek and kaimin's class. so fun! ah whatever. 2 more weeks. then it's good riddance to s10.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:00
Saturday, September 25, 2004
i hate my fucking brother who acts like he's utterly stupid and can't understand english! seriously i wanna slap him! i wish my mum stopped at 2!
on a happier note, happy birthday to haogen, ui aik and daryl! we had a birthday celebration-cum-house reps outing today at swensons and ahhh.. i'm like so broke now. huili and i met up early to get stuff and all the lignum girls were late!!! but okay la, so were alot of other people. it's sooo difficult trying to settle 22 people down and the bill was quite a headache. haha. we watched the terminal after lunch and it's actually not too bad a show so i don't understand why the ratings for it were so low. after the show we walked around and crapped a bit before i had to leave.
i met huiling a few mins late but we still ended up the earliest at city hall! quite expected coz the 4/1 girls have a reputation of never being early. dinner was pretty okay except for the long wait for the food coz of an incompetent kitchen. the waiter was pretty nice about it though, he even offered to heat up wenjie and esther's food, haha. it's always nice meeting up with the bunch of them. they're definitely different from the nj crowd but they always make me think about things that i probably wouldn't have been concerned with, being in nj. ohh, we're gonna celebrate mid-autumn festival on tuesday! i want a lantern!
quite glad to be staying home tomorrow.. i've been going out so early in the morning and coming home late at night the past couple of days i'm actually tired. zzz.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:52
Friday, September 24, 2004
okay i'm really sleepy, i don't know why. but it was a pretty good day spent. i managed to get quite alotta of stuff altered and i did a good deed at the hospital! maybe that's why the doctor was so nice but what the hell, i'm happy enough to receive the sorta-good news. plus the trip to the doctor's ended earlier than i expected so i had more time to talk to jonathan! man.. that fella looks pretty much the same except he got himself another tattoo, a huge one. it's great talking to him after what, one year? we had so, so much to catch up.. finally told him some stuff that i should've a long time ago and i think he finally understands me alot better now. the only turn off was seeing the person i detest most in my life and having to wait a whole hour at the samsung service centre and ending up not having anything done. oh well.
eh..xinhui's latest entry inspires me. she's not my favourite senior for nothing man. haha. rock on xin! oohh.. char, you can try hula & co. and happy birthday captain ui aik!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 21:43
Thursday, September 23, 2004
i just got home and i'm a happy girl!
dodgeball is so painfully hilarious. half the time i was moving in my seat coz well, by instinct i was trying to dodge too. mann.. it really looks so painful! haha. but it's a pretty alright show la. purely for laughs. the first time in MONTHS i've actually watched anything on the big screen. oh and i saw alotta people today! 3 njcians even before half the day was gone! i went to the pool in the morning and by the time i got home, i had already met siva, jacq and this rugger whose name i can't remember at the moment.. =(
after the show we went to shop! and we saw kat and xw, some of my old friends and eileen! but that girl didn't see me and her phone wasn't on.. grr. oh and i was so busy talking to lynette i didn't realise that we walked past christopher michael lee, that cute guy from singapore idol. damn, right? haha. oh well. i didn't get THAT many stuff, i mean, my list of things to buy's still long but they're not really urgent. like a new pencil box? i think i can get that next year. i'm happy enough with the stuff i bought today, especially the skirt!! i never knew they sold abercrombie & fitch stuff over here. it's a pity the bag i wanted's outta stock though. but it's okay. i'm still happieeeeeee.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 18:57
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
oh wow i got back not too long ago. haha. what a long day! it's quite fun having people fuss over your hair and appearance but as the day went on it became awfully tiring. so so so tiring and my head hurt coz i've never had my hair pulled so tightly before. but it's definitely an eye-opener. not something i'd choose to do very often though. well i'm outta here!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 22:35
finally the nightmare ends! okay not really. i mean. it's a couple of days of pure fun and then it's back to the books. but hey, i slept at 10.30 last night so i'm happy. haha. oh but my bio-clock's fixed around 6+am so yes.. got up around there. and poor peiying, haha. i woke her up coz i messaged her! oops.. well i really wish i could join them to play in school la, i miss those guys man. and i miss playing bball..badminton..blablabla. ah well. today's gonna be a long day!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 08:14
Monday, September 20, 2004
in under 24 hours i'll be free! gosh. i came home today and i slept for 1 and a half hours.. i'm so freaking tired. i just heard, britney spears says 'i do' for the second time this year. man.. what's up with these people? they earn big bucks but they live their lives with no real purpose.. haha. okay. high entertainment value perhaps. they make good conversation topics about people who're really just rotting away. so beautiful, britney spears and paris hilton but what more to them is there? okay i'm outta here.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 18:47
Saturday, September 18, 2004
i think it's just one of those things that happen to me whenever i get too bored with my life. haha. i'll think of doing something new? like.. the last time i had this really really super strong urge to get the top of my ear pierced and i finally did it at the end of the day even though i was gonna sweat it out at a club that night (that evening i met esther and wenjie and wenjie chickened out coz she was afraid of the pain!) and wow, haha. for some weird reason i felt happy though it was quite painful. no, i'm not sado. happy as in.. i did something new la. ..okay.. cheap thrill. oh and for the record, i have no regrets. i know a tattoo's a different thing, that's why i'm going around asking first. lyn and i were just talking abit about the social stigma (digressing a bit, i found this on www.dictionary.com: stig·ma·ta /stig-'mät-&, 'stig-m&t-&/ or stigmas: an identifying mark or characteristic..haha. context!) of having it that day but well, social norms change and it's not gonna change or make a good person bad. haha. well thanks you guys for all the feedback! :D
i had an ice blended mocha and my heartbeat's racing now.. i tried to take a nap but it felt like i had just finished my 2.4.. i'm tired. and i suck at probability.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 18:04
Friday, September 17, 2004
wow i had like..15 mins left for 3 organic questions!?! ahh!! i threw so many marks away because of that.. sigh.. i hope that energetics qns was worth it man. well i was thinking of getting like, a real one. hahah. painful, yes, but nice! right right? and i'm giving myself till the end of the year to decide! :D i haven't done stats for like super long and now i'm struggling. had a good time talking to lyn and kat abit though. ahh..enjoy your weekend people!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 22:11
Thursday, September 16, 2004
okay i'm seriously considering a tattoo. after A's of course. anyone gonna persuade/dissuade me?
// hilda left the world behind.. // 17:28
my irritant of a brother used to always hog the TV coz he's always playing with his playstation but now he's turning to the computer! he's hogging my pc!! which makes him more irritating! and when i wanna use it he's always giving me THE black face because he's chatting on msn?!?! like.. what the hell man. i can't wait till i get my notebook next year. oh, it's quite nice to be home alone coz then i can blast the speakers really really loudly and nobody's gonna complain that i'm listening to trash coz my mum and my sister are not home.
my playlist's rockin'! i can feel the vibration from a distance away! woohoo! i can't wait for next week coz then i'm going out with the house reps and the 4/1 girls. jess and lyn said they wanna go out and play too. and i'm finally gonna meet jonathan after like, a whole year? i might get myself an mp3 player too. depends.. hopefully. haha. i went to swim at night yesterday and it was cold because of the rain but it was good! and i think i'm on a high now coz of coffee..coffee's good too. so how come some people are so against coffee? we're only halfway thru the prelims but i feel like this huge load has been taken away from me already. okay maybe i'm still not feeling as stressed as i should be feeling? okay whatever. i'm talking shit here. ciao!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 15:28
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
ahh.. i was quite happy when i did the first few qns of the math paper but the last part can cry? *sigh* i spent most of my time on math and chem but ah well. and i still haven't done ANYTHING for physics! hmm.. wendy called me today though. good news good news. haha. but i still don't know the details yet.. it's like, the closest thing to having fun during this period. oh. and i just realised handi's still in jarkarta? so scary!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 20:25
Sunday, September 12, 2004
oh gosh i had the weirdest dream the other night. i dreamt i was taking care of a group of kids in this room and there was a double-decker bed. i was right on top with a few of the kids when the door opened and this toddler wearing this really weird shirt crawled in, and right behind him, there was this guy holding a gun, and he fired! it didn't hit anyone but well, i was supposed to be protecting the kids right? so i gave chase and i was wrestling with that guy for the gun and i got shot in my right shoulder. haha. all this talk about terrorism in the papers is really getting to me. well happy belated birthday to kelly and mervyn, haha, you're soooo humble man. my mummy and daddy's wedding anniversary is some time this week! but this weekend's kinda packed so i reckon we'll probably only go for dinner next weekend. hrm.. for some weird reason i'm kinda high now. ahh!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 13:03
Friday, September 10, 2004
ahh yes forgot to mention a big thanks to mervyn, the self-proclaimed 'mervyn the great'. :D
// hilda left the world behind.. // 13:03
Thursday, September 09, 2004
haha. i was quite tickled by whoever left that message in my guestbook. i thought it was pretty amusing. :D okay okay, some people say i'm damn cheap thrill. nevermind. the thing in the morning went pretty okay. they'll only confirm by 18th sept but i'm hoping it'll be a yes. met candice and later on, yunqi, at the esplanade library and really, i'm way behind schedule. bahhhh.. nevermind. oh but so cool, the world's so small. haha. yunqi and i have a new common friend from nafa! and i met shuying, the year 3 ex-solaris capt who crashed my og! haha. well, thanks to candice and icky for spending the day out with me yea. :)
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:59
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
haven't really been blog surfing 'coz yea, i've been trying to get my personal stuff done. i did randomly click on a couple of links a while ago and seems like everyone's just talking about mugging, mugging and err, more mugging. so here's my fair share of talk about mugging...
fcuk it!
oh yes. happy 18th birthday to eileen!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:53
Saturday, September 04, 2004
wow xinhui's like, one of the few people whom i can actually talk to about stuff like that man. it's weird how when we were young, we wonder why some people would rather be alone, when all we wanna do is fool around with our friends. but now that we're older, suddenly we appreciate solitude. hrm..it's sad how some people used to be so innocent, so bubbly and so cheerful but when they enter the real world, they change to become less trusting, more cynical and bitter because somehow, everyone else has a hidden agenda. perhaps, some changes occur not because people want to change, but because people adapt so that they don't get hurt? i suppose many people fall under this category. people don't do things just for the sake of doing it anymore and it's crazy, sometimes even evil, the things people do to each other to achieve their personal goals. it's scary how you think you know someone well but then you see this other side of them that's so scheming, so malicious. then there're people who are so innocent and just so super nice it would be a miracle if they don't get taken advantage of. that's you xinhui. haha.
or maybe it's just me being cynical here. the world's not all that bad right? there are still people who would go out of their way to put a smile on somebody else's face. so yes, xinhui, smile. :D one day i'll save enough pocket money and i'll fly over to accompany you! i promise!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 18:07
just a few shout outs.
mervyn! haha. you silly thing! i wouldn't know la, it's my guestbook's doing man. but hey thanks for the tip, so lame! chill out? -_- but yea, i doubt i'll really go to 7-11 :D
huiling! my smart friend! haha. hey if you guys are going out to study call me along okay! i could use some help man. besides, we missed our common lunch date..
eileen! aye.. you're most welcome girl. we'd organised something during the hols if it wasn't because it's the week before prelims.. sigh. yep, we'll go out next time okay?
// hilda left the world behind.. // 09:19
Friday, September 03, 2004
woot. just visited lydia's blog and i guess a lot of people are feeling the pressure. seems like almost everyone's going crazy trying to get some studying done. haha. at the rate i'm going, feels like i'm only taking 3 subjects instead of 4 man. i haven't touched physics in eons and i know it's screwed for sure. it doesn't help that there isn't anywhere conducive to study. school's an hour away and coffee bean downstairs is so close to the blardy arcade you can practically feel the vibration of the machines and those blardy bengs walking arnd are a definite distraction. i might hit the coffee bean near kelly's or the starbucks not too far away. hopefully they're less crowded. ahhhh...my heel still hurts even though i last ran on sunday. i don't respond well to exam stress. i'm swearing a lot more these days. xinhui, when you come back at the end of the year.. promise we'll go somewhere to just drink and chill okay?
// hilda left the world behind.. // 20:42
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
fark man i think my brother's gay. there're so many guys calling in the morning and since my sister's at the university, i'm left to pick up the blardy phone partly 'coz i woke up early hoping to do some work. can't they just call his blardy mobile? and i hate cramps. sometimes i wish i could remove my entire uterus. and i'm officially on antibiotics 'coz there's trace of blood in my phelgm. and i dreamt last night. stuff that made my heart ache. and it also means i didn't sleep well.
oh a brighter note. i get to collect 87 pictures i took over the past one and a half years. there're more with ui aik but i'll only get them later on in the week. hrm. but that means i'll probably feel better later.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 11:39
