Her Rants
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
it's pouring outside. thank goodness we didn't go watch the rugby finals in the end. i'm home early. woohoo! it's weird though, i mean.. it just doesn't seem..right.. for me to be home this early. i'll go join my sister outside, she's watching some movie. and huiling, once again, that loser sure hasn't got the guts to say whatever he/she wants to either of our faces. forget about it yea? try to enjoy your time in genting. i'll be stuck here in singapore. =( we gotta arrange a time for you all to come over k? i won't be online much (i hope i can resist the temptation of switching on the computer) so anything, call me or something ya?
xinhui: hey, i'm not doing anything this friday afternoon. so if you wanna meet for lunch before u fly on monday, lemme know okay? i need to know when you're coming back also!
lynette: hey girl, we'll both be super bored this month. if you need a breather and wanna go catch a show or go shop etc etc, call me!
4/1 girls: people! arrange a time to meet up ya? you all wanna stay over also can la. see u all soon!
house reps: people.. ice-skating!!!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 16:34
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
what's in a name? =) i'm all right now, thanks to all you people who showed concern ya? and yes haresh, i really hope for that too. i'm kinda looking forward to elect camp. it's like, our last major project before finally stepping down. i hope i'll be able to go thru' with most of the activities though, coz' i'm quite worried about my leg. i don't know how i'm gonna change the dressing etc etc, considering it's a camp. ah well. photo taking for the house reps tomorrow and baking session on thursday!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 19:48
Sunday, May 23, 2004
so they've chosen a name for themselves. it's weird. the numbers don't even tally to 74. but what the hell, we agreed to let them decide on the name and now they have. this week's been an emotional one, not just for us. somehow there's more tension than before and i guess a lot of people are feeling it. i think a few of us really wanted to walk out of the sanctuary but as seniors, we just couldn't. i really gotta thank kat though..i think she knows exactly how i feel. we all kinda expected it but the disappointment was so raw and fresh. ..on the other hand, if it's the name they voted for, i guess we should just respect it...
we both want the best for them, but there's been a lot of miscommunication. that's fine. but there are those who sow seeds of discord and create unnecessary tension. to hell with them. right now, what's most important to me is that the juniors will have a smooth transition into office. the last thing they need right now is to see us argue amongst ourselves. we're gonna have a breakfast party on the last morning of the camp. the juniors are supposed to provide breakfast for us but kat suggested baking something (after all, that's her specialty) for the juniors in our group so yea, i'll probably go over to her place some time next week. =)
yep.. i'll have to keep reminding myself that it's for the juniors..
// hilda left the world behind.. // 13:12
Saturday, May 22, 2004
i woke up late today even though i slept more than usual yesterday! i woke up at 6.20am but thankfully i managed to get to school in time. lynette and i left school a little earlier than usual and we caught the bus to city hall. i met xinhui over there and we went caught Cookin' - the korean version of stomp? haha. it was really interesting but i fell asleep halfway..amazing really, considering all that noise. i've been so tired the past few weeks. it just keeps accumulating i guess. ah well. we were at subway for quite a long while after that before i met the rest of the lignum 6th. this year's band concert wasn't as great as last year but hey, gotta give them credit for the hard work put in! it's one more event down eileen.. =)
pre-camp 2 tomorrow..sigh. gotta be in school at 7am? sigh..
// hilda left the world behind.. // 00:22
Thursday, May 20, 2004
i was sooo tired i was contemplating whether or not to go to school. i went in the end, coz it's a short day. i tried to study a bit for my physics test on the way to school but man.. i was so shagged i fell asleep. the house room was rather empty when i got there and i just lay down on the floor and slept until derek woke me up. i didn't do any work this entire week and i was talking to lynette most of the time in class..haha. it was nice talking to her though. i went home straight after school (1.30pm) and i slept!!! i slept!!! for like.. 2+ hours! and i'm so happy!!!! woohoo! i woke up just in time to answer wenjie's phone call and i rushed down to toa payoh to meet the girls. it's always nice catching up with the bunch of them and we had a rather simple but nice dinner! hopefully i can arrange a day during the holidays for them to come buy and bake or sthg! haha. just to hang out la. woohoo. tomorrow's a friday! whee!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 22:46
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
we got second for cheerleading!! ohyeaaaaa!!! i knew they were better than we were but i was so afraid that they would panic and you know the rest. but no!! they were greattt! our stunts weren't complicated but i guess simplicity works too! they did it well, near 100% successful stunts and they were all smiles! i was up there, pressing the play button and sigh.. i'm soooo sooo proud of them! i'm really glad they kept their faith and their cool! woohoo!!
overall we got 3rd for track and field meet! i think that's an improvement from last year! there were definitely more competitors from lignum this time around and i think they should all be really proud of themselves! gosh..i'm so happyy!!!
we had a debrief..till like.. 8+ in school? yea.. we teared and all that, and kelly sat in too. i guess our term's almost done.. but yea, i told them how i felt about a lot of things.. and it was a very honest session. too bad eileen wasn't there. but yes.. it was touching.. and i realised i'm gonna miss a lot of things after i step down.. yea.. feeling nostalgic now. ahh.. thanks you guys, the lignum 6th, people who supported us all the way, and our 2004 lignum cheerleaders. you guys rock, totally. =) thank you.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:08
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
i've been in a really foul mood the past couple of days. a couple of people probably know why. lots of stuff really.
but today i was really so happy! the table-top stunt (i don't know what that's called) - we tried it for the first time today and it was a success! and like, initially we couldn't get the elevators up, but after a while, things started to become better. the first 2/3 of the entire routine's almost perfect and the last 1/3 has minor screw ups here and there but on the whole, it was great! considering we've only done it twice with the music! and like..team morale was really high! we were so happy for them!! i know the stunts are difficult - we were the cheerleaders last year, but when the stunts were successful, wow... all of them were genuinely so happy! we treated them to pizza after the training as we had planned and it was nice to see the look on their faces.. =) eileen, i only wish you were there.
oh and today haresh was reading out the rankings for the houses and so far.. lignum's third! i hope everything'll go smoothly tomorrow. frankly, i don't really care if we fall into the bottom 3 category, so long as those people who have put in so much hard work are happy with whatever they've done and contributed. to people like hasan, shawn, kelly.. it's guys like you who make me feel even more proud of the house. thanks.. really. =) oh and to all those who have left msges in my guestbook, yep, thanks you all!
oh..and our internal lignum prob's been solved! woohoo! suddenly things are starting to look up. and 3 of my lignum kids so far are looking to running for captaincy.
we were just talking about it in school..how today's probably the last day we'll have to stay back late in school? i guess it's true..apart from the camp. i'll definitely miss such days.. to the rest of the house reps and their houses: we've always managed to come up with reasonable last minute work..and this time around, you've all put in so much effort.. smile for tomorrow ya? at least we know our kids are enjoying themselves. =D
// hilda left the world behind.. // 22:34
Sunday, May 16, 2004
kelly: don't worry abt it, i'm glad you told me! oh yea.. i can't access your blog anymore.. do u mind giving me access to it?
we had the hike recee today. it was actually quite fun, apart from a few err.. not so pleasant incidents. i had a nice chat with kat though and i think during the actual hike we'll have this jian fei ji hua (diet plan) again. =) oh, and mervyn is really not such a bad fella after all, i guess i can sorta understand why alene's close to him and all..he's such a joke! haha. i guess i'm pretty lucky to have a joker for a group leader, i'll be entertained the entire journey!
we had a captains and vice captain's meeting at kap after that and peiying came all the way from pasir ris to join us! derek said it would only take half an hour (yea right.. haha). we took err.. about 3 hours +? i met my cousin after that..alex. he was gonna sell his bike and he promised to take me on a ride before he did..and i got burnt by the blardy exhaust pipe when i got off. so if you all see me tmr with a bandaged leg.. don't ask. i tried to be all cheery coz he was so apologetic but yea.. it's only coz i didn't want him to feel bad. i went to the doctor's and he said it'll leave a scar for sure, it's only a matter of how bad it is. he said my burnt's more second degree..whatever that means.
i called ui aik after that and i was tearing.. bahhh. you can't really see the bandage from the side or from the front..but from the back.. argh.. and the doctor said it's a pretty large area also..and i'm excused from PE for a week? so much for tennis.. shit man. i'm really sad. i don't mind falling down on a basketball court etc etc.. got tons of that kinda scars.. but a burnt.. it's different. it was so gross. the skin practically melted.. *wails..* this time i really mean it..wailing, i mean. but ui aik managed to make me laugh by the end of the conversation la.. haha. thanks captain. sigh.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 21:54
Saturday, May 15, 2004
the last few days have gone by really quickly. skipping breaks to meet HODs, staying back after school for rehearsals and rehearsals. reaching home at god knows what time and not doing any work at all. going to school the next morning feeling totally shagged etc. cheerleading practices have been cut down, but that's not really a good thing. it just means we don't have enough time and we're all pretty stressed over it. and i missed most of the nj soccer team's last match. bah. i so wanted to cheer them on but i couldn't coz i had a rehearsal after that.
but things weren't all that bad i guess. a lot of people were really encouraging.. flowers from lyn, honey+lemon water from icky and all the other people who told me to hang on. =) i really really appreciate that. plus i've never had 3 HODs wanting to see me at the same time before...hahaha. okay..fine.
i really enjoyed myself yesterday though. i spent half of yesterday with xinhui! we watched troy and daryl.. it isn't that bad! we headed to max brenner's and ohhh yea.. i sooo love chocolate! the fondue was so good!! we walked around a bit and i finally got to see the esplanade library (okay..so i'm a little slow..) and the view from the roof terrace was alright la. headed to this jap restaurant for dinner and wow.. it was damn filling! we went down to town again to meet jinghui for a while before leaving.. hey xinhui, i'll give you the honour of driving me around next time okay? hahaha. choose a better time la!
i woke up at 12noon today (yes! so happy!). gotta get ready for college day soon. it all ends today and i really hope i won't screw up. don't wanna disappoint people like mrs tan. oh, and thanks kelly, for the constructive criticism. =)
// hilda left the world behind.. // 12:53
Sunday, May 09, 2004
oh goodness. my weekend's so wasted. i didn't do anything at all! argh. i just woke up from my nap.. only because i'm so freaking tired. i don't think i'll get enough sleep the next 2 weeks either. there's a math test on tuesday, i think i'll have to screw that. bah. anyway, there's sthg wrong with my blog. the server hosting my graphics died on me and the geocities one isn't very reliable. the "Sweet Reverie" picture shows up sometimes and other times, it doesn't. don't know if it's just my security level la.. feedback people?
wb: haha. u know what happened the last time around, that's why that message is there.
sab: hey, i guess you're right. i'm glad you're okay though. ah don't worry, you've got err.. 3 more years in njc. :)
// hilda left the world behind.. // 18:49
Friday, May 07, 2004
i'm a little disappointed with the results of the elections. a few people whom i wanted in didn't get in. *sigh* i'm glad they're okay about it though. and i'm worried for the lignum elects who got in. i mean..there're only 7 of them. gawd. the second least is like, 12? arghhh... i think about what we went thru' and how they're going to go thru' it and i feel like crying. come to think about it, we'll be giving up a lot when we step down, after all, we've been thru' so much. this is so stupid, but i really hope their term will be a smoother one..
on a lighter note. i had this majorrrrrr loser moment during physics tutorial today. it was sooo embarrassing..arghh. but it was funny la. haha. candid moments in njc. =) we wanted to catch a movie but in the end ronald pulled out coz he wanted to do work (hah! didn't do much in the end huh?). gin had math so in the end, grace, ron, lynette and i went for lunch! it's been so long since i've had lunch with the bunch of them. grace and ron's birthday? hmmm. well lyn and i went to town hoping to catch the show but bahh..i felt so cheated. there was no show in the end. it wasn't exactly a bad thing i guess. i ate the chocolate banana from secret recipes and i finally got to talk to that girl. we see each other in class all the time but we don't get to talk much these days so yea, the trip to down didn't end that badly after all. =) well do take care of yourself la ya? don't train so soon if you can't. they didn't give you the one-month mc for no reason.
elect pre-camp starts tmr. there goes my weekend. *wails*
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:41
Thursday, May 06, 2004
it's thursday evening. finally. the weekend's nearing but well..there's pre camp..college day rehearsals..xiuli's birthday..mothers' day. phew. not forgetting cheerleading. but cheerleading's going well, i mean, considering we've had so few practices. and i'm glad the attire is more or less settled already. =)
nj played mj today and we lost 3-1.. so sad.. i mean..the guys trained so hard. looking at russell, ronald and shaun them.. bah... sigh. i don't know what to say to them also.. which makes me feel worse, coz well, some of them have been there to cheer me up whenever i'm too stressed up or whatever la.. i really hope the next few games will be better.
got lots to do.. so yea.. that's all for now.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 21:51
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
great. my parents finally saw my results slip. and they're not thrilled. they haven't spoken to me about it yet and i doubt they intend to. they told my sister to talk to me though.. and she went on about how i should consider going for tuition etc etc. i've never had tuition in my entire life and this is the first time i'm seriously considering though.. ack.. dunno la. i was telling her i don't think i'll have time for it.. i mean. honestly.. i've got so many things to do, especially this month. plus xinhui's coming back soon. i don't even know if i'll have much time for her. and today jialing dropped by..i felt quite bad not going for dinner with her.. i told her to tell me the next time she's free but then i thought about it and realised i probably won't be free at all for the next two weeks? ah well. i'm really afraid for my studies though. my sister's got a point. i'm nowhere near a C. shucks. perhaps i should go talk to mr lim tomorrow.. okay it's 12 mn. bah. still got work to do.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:57
Sunday, May 02, 2004
xinhui: yep, that's the one. (linlin, go read my guestbook!) hey, you'll be back on a wednesday right? that week i have rehearsals for my school college day (15th may). so i think the earliest when i'll be free is probably 15th may evening, after the whole thing is over. you wanna do something after that? just lemme know okay? i've gotta study for my test now.. see you in a couple of weeks!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 21:01
Saturday, May 01, 2004
wow. i just finished the book. and i'm crying. wahh! so sad.. it sure made me think though.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 13:48
