Her Rants
Monday, March 29, 2004
wow. i'm sooo tired! orientation's finally over.. oh but guess what, we've got a general meeting on wednesday regarding merger and elections. haha. ah well.
reached school at 6.30am to see michelle chiang at the door of the students' lounge looking bright and cheery (haha, but i guess you weren't really eh?). peig was early man, for once, haha. seems like most people didn't have the kinda energy they did at the beginning of the year, including myself, but well, if we didn't do it, who would? i managed to switch with michelia and ashwin and got back my old og! but i really didn't spend much time with them coz i was a station master. they had the usual boring admin talk and us ogls had to practice the mass dance. not bad..most of us remembered err..most of it. haha. then came the cheers and the school song.. argh. so frustrating. we caught so many people trying to leave and a few of us resorted to standing guard by the doors. mass dance wasn't too bad i guess. i danced a while with russell (coz kelly was on the platform with gab) before i went up to the pa room.. it was better there. i mean, ron, jianping, lianne and hongju were there and they were rather entertaining. :)
i rushed through lunch coz haresh made some announcement about ogls having to go look for their individual subject teachers to get our common test papers back but well, mr lim refused to return my physics paper until 1.45pm. bah. couldn't be bothered by then la. went down to the gym (hongju had already set up the place for floorball) and played floorball with hongju. wow. i never knew there was like.. so much skill involved in it! erm, i think i did pretty okay, until alroy came along. then he and hongju teamed up (but they did make my goal area bigger). i lost err.. 4-0. so sad! haha. but it was super tiring! we were there from like..1 to 4? quite a lot of classes played and it was rather violent..poor dom. he got whacked in the nose and it bled quite badly. hmm, it was quite nice talking to hongju, he's really approachable and full of rubbish! lynette passed my physics paper to me and err, yea, did pretty badly.. poor hongju, he got really stressed up after seeing my paper, but i'm sure he'll do fine. ron says he's pretty smart.
after the games ended, the both of us went up and got drinks..then haogen, cumarran and justin came too. bah. they're so smart! they were in maldives during the hols and they did sooo well for physics?! *sob* i wish i had half of justin's brain! okay maybe 1/4 will do.. argh. went to the hall for reflections and yea..i was with my house girls.. haha. we all ended up tearing and err..ya..eileen and alene crying while we sang those emotivem, friendship songs.. then later on, peig and huili also! :) the dance party started a while later and yea.. like i said the other day, no mood.. haha. i think a lot of us felt that way..so there were quite a number of us just sitting near the stage. hey i did try mingling in the crowd but i just didn't get the feel of it. in the end the whole lot of us went up to the pa room and i wanted to play with the mixer but there were so many people crowding around it! it was quite funny when ron and alroy started calling each other names coz someone touched the mixer and the music screwed up for a bit. hrm..i was really damn bored la, so i went outside the pa room..a lot of the ogls were just stoning there. oh but we managed to kill some time by learning a bit of salsa from kelly and fuqiang! it's so cool! i think huili and i can be really good at it - given more time to practice! right..? haha.
saw lynette after everything ended and talked to her for a while.. i felt like i hadn't seen her in ages.. don't know why.. but i talked to her for quite a while i think. a few of us went for dinner at coro and saw some hcjc people and alene! argh!! purposely tried to get back at me right?!? *bish* haha. next time in school...be careful okay! oh yes.. ui aik's quite cool! he's trying to organise a day when we can all study together and he's so encouraging.. 3 cheers for him man! i'll probably take up shaun's advice too.. quit blogging so much! oh yes, thanks for the souvenir you brought back from m'sia!
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Sunday, March 28, 2004
tomorrow's orientation 2 but my entire og got shifted to s22 instead of s21. think they're not too happy about it but hey, they'll be in my house if there's no reshuffling of classes in each house! but i'm not sure if i'll be taking them. they haven't told us who's taking which class yet but if things remain, i'm pretty sure i won't be taking their class anymore. i mean, i'll probably end up taking the new s21..argh. i'm not sure either. i'm not that psyched up though...the games and everything, it's kinda screwed up. and the dance party? i might end up near the PA room watching everyone else dance.
xinhui.. come back! faster come back! right now i'm in the mood to do all the stuff that you wrote down on your list. haha. i'm talking to her about spring break next year. i really hope i can go over..then we can do stupid stuff together. :) hey, you gotta try real hard to convince my parents okay! come sleepover at my place if you have to! haha.
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Saturday, March 27, 2004
woo hoo! i just got home! i don't think i've laughed THIS much in a really long while! it's great to have a house outing once in a while and yea, all 6 of us came today! let's see.. saw a couple of njcians (year 1s and 2s) at the tchs bus stop and stupid ui aik! late as usual though he lives in the hostel! haha. i was the earliest (what's new!). nevermind. then the 5 of us headed down to venezia for some ice-cream - daryl's treat! whee! we were there for quite a while until almost dinner time. then we headed down to holland village to walk around a bit. eileen joined us there and we went to look at girl stuff while the guys got seats at thaiexpress. haha..i can't believe it. we all sorta treated each other today, with ui aik topping up the extra cost (gst..etc). and those eeeeedioootsssssss! tried to play a prank on me while i was in the restroom! so evill! but hey.. haha. i'm not stupid okay! and alene! hahaha.. she gave it all away! we finally settled down at coffeebean and agnes treated us to a slice of cake. we just sat there for quite a long time - sipping coffee, eating cake and laughing like no one's business. =D what can i say.. i love my house! i think the 6 of us have come a really long way.. it's incredible. i had so much fun today. thank you all!
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yep. took me a couple of hours to edit the graphics, redo the html and change the credits. sorry hasan, you weren't the first to view the new layout. hee hee. and yes, xinhui, i knew i could count on you to interpret the picture. hmm. leave me a message if you've got something to say about the new layout. cheers.
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Thursday, March 25, 2004
i had such a great time today! i've never spent such a long time in town. let's see..lynette and i watched My Girl really early in the morning (9.50am!) and then spent quite a long time at far east! she had this entire list of to-dos but we managed to get some stuff for me too! we went from ps to far east, to tangs, to wisma, to taka, to paragon, to heeren and finally, to lips cafe at cine! haha. it felt so good to go out and shop like that with one of the girls i love so much! i'm glad that girl got most things on her list done. now i kinda wish i brought my black skirt along to alter too. ah well. nevermind, i can always do it next time. =) i got myself some stuff + a blink182 cd, and we managed to get birthday presents for two people! woo hoo! got a couple more presents to get actually..plus i'm on the lookout for a nice belt. but that'll have to wait. we were at lips for a while and i'm so excited for her! i really hope her mum will let her stay over at my place.. =D i'll feel a sense of achievement too if she pulls it off! when we were leaving, i didn't see the ghost from the Eye 2 stationed beside the escalator..my gosh..i got such a fright i freaked out! i scared lynette and i think the couple behind us was laughing..ah well. oh oh, and i finallyyyyy got my hair cut! whee!!! time to go shower now.. thank you so much girl! and don't take cold drinks yea? it makes cramps more painful i heard.. take care!
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Wednesday, March 24, 2004
woohoo! okay maybe i shouldn't be rejoicing. or rather, i won't be rejoicing when the results are released over the next week. bah. screw all 5 of them, including gp. i'm just glad it's over. huili, you should've called me earlier man, i would've stayed! anyway, i was glad to be home, to finally go through an evening without touching my lecture notes. read the papers for the first time in weeks and saw the notice regarding the Streats Laughing Challenge. haha, the first person i thought about was peiying. hearty..maybe. unusual..yesss...loud...YESSS! hahah. gonna catch AMI now. really looking forward to a day out with lynette tomorrow! :)
xinhui.. here's to hope. thank you. :)
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Tuesday, March 23, 2004
2 down. one more day to go. it's strange how amidst all the anxiety and panic i portray, i really can't be bothered with the results. just wanna get it over and done with. i've got alot of other things to think about..getting a trim, a tan, maybe a bit more of shopping. haha. yea, i can see some people rolling their eyes. but on a more serious note, i wish xinhui was back, i really need to chill... Passion of the Christ will be showing under the new M-18 rating soon and i'm really looking forward to it. it's gonna pass uncut, like, finally! =)
hmm. hope.. gives people something to look forward to doesn't it? but what if you're hoping for something that will never be? do you still hang on to that hope? or is it better to face up to reality and save yourself from disappointment?
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Sunday, March 21, 2004
okay. i can't leave things like that hanging. it makes me feel uncomfortable. the new guestbook is up. write away.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 18:23
i've finally finished organic chem.. finished as in..managed to flip thru' and draw out a very sketchy concept map.. i've yet to really familiarise myself with the reactions though. i realised my guestbook's full so i've decided to take it down for a while. i'll put up a new one (preferably with no limit to the no. of entries) after the CTs.
to that anonymous someone: thanks for your words of encouragement. haha. you didn't even leave your email. how am i supposed to contact you? you can email me if you want to - click on the
* beside my name.
hasan: *sob sob* i can't swim that well too, i guess if the boat capsizes, we'll drown together then. sigh. anyway, you need a graphic editor like photoshop or paintshoppro to change the dimensions from 800x600 pixels to 1024x768 pixels. hey, after CTs, could you please nag at me to study?
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Friday, March 19, 2004
"Every time I feel alone
I can blame it on you
And I do
You got me like a loaded gun
Golden sun and sky so blue
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice.."
[michelle branch]
// hilda left the world behind.. // 14:02
oh yea! my outlook express is finally working again. it's been down since the end of january and i had to rely on webmail.. i need to configure my firewall properly, seems that was what blocked the connection. well i think i've kinda given up on physics already.. no way i'll pass this time around.
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mk, don't know why i'm helping you when i'm sorta facing the same thing too..haha. but you've got a better chance.. hope it'll turn out fine.
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Thursday, March 18, 2004
xinhui called me from halfway across the world today. haha. it was pretty good talking to her, and wow, i hate to say this, but she's getting cooler by the minute..! can't wait for you to get back! i'm pretty psyched about the whole summer break plan you've got. oh, and if you can't play that lifehouse song, you can
try to serenade me with some sappy love song! hahahahha!
hmm. this blog needs a revamp. i've been trying to look for this picture i chanced upon once - a red rose by the window and the only other thing in the picture is the rain that's falling outside. it's this white/grey/ picture except for the rose.. if i can't find it, i guess i'll have to settle for something else. perhaps even get one of those ready made templates. bah. the guns and roses show is starting!
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just read yujie's blog.. the one dated 14th onwards.. i guess i'm experiencing it in my own way too, on and off. that was what got me started on the whole religion thing in the first place.. but well, right now i'm trying to find joy in the simple pleasures of life.. like sitting by the window and watching the rain fall. [okay, i understand sometimes why people like ronald say i'm damn cheap thrill]. happens a lot lately coz of the crazy weather. lynette hates the rain but i like it sometimes..it has this strange but calming effect. i guess we all want someone who'll be there to love and care for us [apart from your parents, siblings, friends etc - i'm talking about
the special someone] and yea, that feeling can be overwhelming at times but not all of us are so lucky. that's why i've resorted to finding joy in rain.. haha. okay that's crap. i genuinely like rain. i think you all can stop reading at this point coz i'm pretty sure what i've written doesn't make sense. i just need to do something. all that organic chemistry is making me dizzy.
// hilda left the world behind.. // 01:42
i hate organic chemistry. i feel like my head's gonna explode and the caffeine's making me sick. oh helpppppp... i hateeeeeeeeeeee studyinggggggggggggg.....................
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Tuesday, March 16, 2004
i just got home! my legs are killing me and i'm really sleepy coz i haven't been sleeping well the last couple of days. i keep dreaming about all sorts of rubbish.. but it's my only day out with my mum this holiday so yea, i went anyway. argh, it's annoying how she keeps nagging though.. honestly, i wish my sister came along today coz then my mum would have someone else to nag at.. but she did put up with my nonsense today. haha.
we had dimsum at bugis and yea, she said she'd get me the 593 for my birthday but they ran out of stock at levi's-bugis. i think she knew i was pretty upset coz she didn't think twice about going down to people's park to get it for me.. so yes. early birthday present for me! =) got some other stuff too! she wanted to get dumbbells for my sister but no... no way i was gonna carry those things around town. hmm, oh yea, saw huiling on the way to town, and later, francine and the ruggers. that reminds me, that girl's birthday is err..tmr! hey lynette.. present..how?
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oh my gosh! xinhui! congrats! you can driveeeeee!!!!!!! when you come back you
have to drive us around okay.. me and esther. :)
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Monday, March 15, 2004
i finally told lynette about the thing that got on my nerves.. it got on her's too. the thought of it still puts me off.. like..what the hell. bah...
thank you agnes for a wonderful day! my my..haha.. she's such a great host man and though we didn't study that much, it was good talking to her, i mean, i haven't spoken to her in quite a while.. :) it's comforting to know i can share stuff about my brother with her, coz she's got a younger brother who's pretty similar to mine.
met my sister after that to watch runaway jury! it's quite an intelligent movie.. hmm. but well, all that going out and all has put me behind schedule.. ah well.
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Saturday, March 13, 2004
the last one week or so of school was really uneventful, that explains why i haven't been blogging much.
yesterday was the last day of the term (cheer!) but i felt so cheated man. mrs cheng announced that we would all be released at 2pm because of the A level results but heck. friday's already a slack day for me. before she made the announcement, derek lee pushed our econs tutorial forward to 1.20pm and we kinda guessed that it could be because of a half-day. well..true enough eh? but he dragged the tutorial all the way until about 2.30pm anyway. *shrugz*
thought i could catch a bit of a shut-eye and run when the weather's cooler but it didn't happen. just bumped around with a few people.. huili, haogen, kelly. watched the nj-nyp soccer match and dammmmnnn... i waved to jess just as nj scored! argH!! and then nyp scored when i was changing in the toilet.. grr. so yea, missed
both the goals. ah well. stayed to watch 'ye chuan' but i had to ask huili to explain what was going on quite a bit.. haha. haogen, aren't you glad we went? and geez, i've never seen so much foundation on a guy before.
took a cab home just to catch american idol! hahahah! my god. it was hilarious! and i don't understand the whole william hung issue..i mean.. sheesh. i for one, feel absolutely disgusted.
hmmm. i'm feeling quite guilty right now. was running on the track early this morning and there were two sec1 girls there too. they left their stuff unattended and while i was stretching, i saw this indian boy loitering around. my back was turned and i heard a noise..when i turned around, i saw him pick up one of the waterbottles and place it back properly. 15 minutes later.. one of the girls asked if i saw anyone there..coz her handphone and wallet were gone. my sister says it's partly my fault.. i guess i should've been more alert.. argh. i mean.. i DID suspect that the boy was up to sthg but i didn't do anything about it. my dad says i'm not to blame at all.. i mean, yea, they're both in sec 1 already, they should've known better than to leave their valuables lying around right? right? bahh..even then, i still feel quite bad..
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004
haven't had the mushroom swiss from BK for ages! was so happy when lynette and i went to holland village for a while during lunch+free block. i never knew they had so many interesting stuff at holland v.. =) oh, and i think i'm gonna listen to ronald.. i really do appreciate his words of advice. that's why i'm gonna be a good girl this march vacation and not go for any of the upcoming parties. *sigh* i guess it'll have to do if i wanna keep my 4 subjects. ah well. after common tests, i'll have to finish up my last 8 hours of CIP and to fill up the NYAA rubbish. oh. i'll ask the girls out to wala wala too. *happy birthday to weiwei - hope you had a wonderful day today!* and to hasan.. i'll be here if you need anything yea? do take care.
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Sunday, March 07, 2004
tsk. so annoying. 4As and a C5. that's not good? ...
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Saturday, March 06, 2004
ron: try www.boxup.com change your browser settings for 'encoding' to chinese first yea.
jialing: so sorry i didn't reply you that night.. i fell asleep!
// hilda left the world behind.. // 23:32
oh yea baby. i think i might be able to get the 593 by my birthday! =) shucks.. there are so many things i wanna get, so many shows i wanna catch...but but.. *wails*. so broke right now! i hope mummy's really gonna get me the pair of jeans next month. saw lots of stuff i wanted to get today but i felt bad making her pay.. gotta save up i guess. term's coming to an end.. after that we've got the blardy common tests (panic!) but i'm looking forward to spending time with my mum and sister during the one week vacation.. think i might drop by HMV and use the vouchers i got from talentime.. i could do with a few more good CDs. recommendations anyone? ronald?? hmm.. supposed to go watch Girl with the Pearl Earrings today with my family but there were only front row tickets left! ah well. shopping made up for it. =)
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Thursday, March 04, 2004
well, seems like half my og's leaving. =( but i guess it's natural to want to move to greener pastures right?
went to town with jess lim and lynette but only lyn and i caught The Butterfly Effect. It isn't fantastic but it's a pretty cool movie. reminds me a little of GroundHog Day. wanted to look for new earrings but we didn't see anything that's wearable to school and nice at the same time. *wails* but thanks girl.. it's been a longggg time since i last saw a movie! weekend's coming! whee! and congrats to the njc girls' cross team on coming in 2nd!
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Monday, March 01, 2004
keagan kang is awfully cute..! okay wait.. now that i think abt it.. he looks just a tad bit like someone i know.. right alene? well hey..i'm glad i found yet another person who's facing the same dilemma as i am. hee hee. thanks yujie for offering to gimme a bible study, i kinda forgot what that feels like already.. i think i know how you feel but i know we'll all be okay one day. smile ya? mankuan, that was a really interesting site.. haha. i hope you're doing okay yea? seems like you're kinda troubled too..
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