Sunday, November 30, 2003
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Saturday, November 29, 2003
wed: went to school in the morning to meet sweelee. had to get tickets from him for zhu's party. it was quite nice talking to him after so long.. =) talk to wee gin too. i realised i miss that girl. haha. saw some car accident along lornie road, and the police used this white cloth to cover a dead body.. man. it was kinda freaky.
thurs: had CIP in the morning. the children were sooo adorable! there were a few bitchy ones, girls who already have that kinda angst in them.. but there were really sweet ones too! the boys..haha. there were some potential-hunks but they were still rascals. shopped around in town after that to get new shoes and lyn got herself a really cool Chaos top. went to her place to dress up..spent an awful lot of time doing my hair and though it was straighter, it was super dry. =( jess lai and siqi came over and we left for holland v to pick jess lim up. her hair was sooo funky!
the turn out was kinda small, and the doors weren't open until like.. 9+ ? saw alotta familiar faces tho, including nj people..non-nj people.. whatever. jess lai and i stuck together alot, coz lyn had alan, jess was mc and siqi, later on, had ming. we chiong-ed the free-flow and pretty soon lyn was like..high already. jess lai and i wanted to get tequila shots at the bar, but alan got a free bottle of tequila..so we took a couple.. xiaowei couldn't finish hers, so i took it for her.. after that. oh mannn.. lyn was all over the place..and jess lai was kinda out too, she was way high. but it was wild..and fun. haha. i guess i was really high too, but i wasn't drunk. ming dared me to go on the pole for 10 bucks. he owes jess and i now. haha. didn't feel too well when we left though, felt giddy and puked a bit. thank god lyn's parents didn't suspect a thing. siqi went out towards the end too, i'm glad ming and alan were both there.
friday: woke up feeling like crap. still felt like puking a bit but playing with the kids at the CIP centre helped. we slept at 4, woke up at 7 for CIP. was shagged, but well, didn't have a choice did we? i think that small boy jusi, has a crush on me. he even wanted to catch butterflies for me. haha. so adorable! talk about jie3-di4-lian4. francine took over lyn at 12, and we talked quite a bit. i was happy, i mean, it was good catching up with her. haven't spoken to her since the holidays started. she told me not to drink so much at SOS.
went to huiling's house to dress up..hope her mum didn't read too much into our dressing. haha. met zhanghao at SOS to get tickets and saw quite a few people too, including jolin! ahh!! mann...i soooo missed her! met this friend of hers, yun, turns out she was david and my cousin's classmate..so yea..she kinda heard abt me too. didn't drink much, but it was okay. i had enough at Paradigm to last me 2 nights. danced like crazy tho, and mannn.. met Lesad, he was obviously not local, but he was cute. haha. we danced, but i didn't give him my number though. it was one hell of a wild nite. comparable to Paradigm i think. had supper at newton circus and slept until 7+ at shiling's place. that's.. about 7 hours of sleep within 2 days? had loads of fun the past 2 days, but i'm glad to be home. my body needs rest now.
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Tuesday, November 25, 2003
planned to go home and sleep till god knows when but ron called me when i was on the way home, asked if i was free to play mahjong at 3+. i slept immediately when i got home.. got up only when he called me at 3 to ask where i was. it was quite nice really, playing with them, ron, kangyu, jingyin. talked to them abit. =) i'm really happy for ron. if you're reading this, hope things will work out for you yea?
i need to exercise. i miss playing basketball..
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Monday, November 24, 2003
had fun with some of the house reps and shawn lee at KAP today. it was hilarious. played the number game and ended up doing dares. but it was really quite funny, haha. the neighbouring table even clapped for us and waved when we left. =)
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been thinkin quite a bit recently. talked to jolin..the 4/1 girls..my sister..we all agreed it's so difficult to forge true friendships nowadays.. everything's so superficial it's disgusting at times. there's this saying, "a friend is someone whom you can sit on a swing with, not talk, but leave feeling like you've had the best conversation in your life". hah. it's rare to find people like that these days. funny thing is, though so many people feel the same way that i do, nothing's changed..
but it doesn't really matter. i mean, i'm happy. i have pretty much everything i need right now.. friends whom i know i can count on.. people in school whom i can joke and laugh with. it's the best of both worlds i guess. i'm happy with my life at home and in school.. =) it's interesting to see how when i'm happy, other people seem to have so many problems, trivial ones. things that, well, don't matter, yet they make a fuss out of it, ie. problems of the heart. perhaps i'm insensitive, or maybe, it's been a while since anyone seriously special stepped into my life.
but one thing i've learnt this year is that i've only got a lifetime for fun and happiness. it's too short. i wanna experience whatever i can experience and i guess that means, no time to mop around, to sulk or to regret. maybe that's why i don't sympathise with certain people. i work for what i want, but for whatever that doesn't turn out the way i want it to, i guess it's Fate. had enough of my ranting? i'll end here.
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Sunday, November 23, 2003
the restrooms were really interesting. they had pictures of men in their undies plastered all over the walls; it was pics of women in the men's restroom. kat suggested a house reps girls' outing to hooters one day after they come back from sarawak, haha, coz we both know they'll have loads of comments and jokes about the waitresses and the restrooms. =) we saw the last bit of the buskers' performance from up on the balcony. this guy was really cool, it swallowed fire and did some neat stuff on the skateboard. =)
walked around a bit and passed this pub, 1nitestand. they had a live band playing in there and they were pretty good. xiaomin wanted to check it out, i wouldn't mind going with her, i mean, the band really did sound not bad, but alotta us had to get home early.. oh well. i'm halfway through "the lovely bones" right now. ciao.
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Saturday, November 22, 2003
went to S.O.S. last night with the 4/1 girls, and err, 2 guys, ie. zeyan and zhiheng. the girls didn't have a problem getting in, it was the guys. thank goodness zhanghao was there too, he did us a huge favour. =) thanx man! saw kerrie too, it's been quite a while since i last saw her, and it was nice of her to ask me if i was all right in the club. thank you too!
we drank a bit, and my face was all flushed. suddenly remembered what david said. sthg about, if your face flushes easily when you drink, it kinda means your body absorbs the alcohol well.. sthg like that. *shrugz* but it was nothing compared to zhanghao. i think he had a bit too much to drink; his face was super flushed and his eyes were all glassy, but he was still sober. haha.
the dancing bit was really fun. as usual, people tried to get touchy but yep, that was where the guys came in. =) saw eugene there with this girl, but he hung out with us later on. 2 guys asked me to dance with them but i said no! just as well, they weren't cute. =X
i saw roy! goodness. i realised how much he's been out of my life when previously we used to talk on the phone.. it was good seeing him though. i guess i kinda missed him. he was sweet; kept telling me not to drink too much and to take care of myself, even messed up my hair the way my dad does sometimes. haha.
it's weird how so many people i haven't seen for ages suddenly appeared.. roy..alan..kerrie..wenrong..
didn't sleep at all. we just hung around until 7+.. had breakfast at Mac before esther, huiling and i went back to my place, changed, and left for AJC to watch the soccer friendly between AJ and NJ. NJ won. =) *yawn* nite now!
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Thursday, November 20, 2003
but the cycling bit was fun! lyn, gin, serhwee and i! oh man. i suck at it so much i doubt my dad will ever allow me to cycle on the road. *sigh* i can't go up steep slopes, we had to get off and drag the bloody bike up.. but the downslopes were SUPER fun! whee! lyn and i wanted to tan, but the sky was overcast the entire day! *sob* went to town with that girl in the evening and well..i'm really so glad i have her. as a friend AND a shopping partner. =) bbQ tmR! yea!!
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Wednesday, November 19, 2003
met esther and zeyan and visited BodyWorlds! Man.. Interesting's an understatement. I guess you gotta go see it for yourself. it was kinda gross, yet, fascinating. the bodies were all real, but it felt like plastic coz of the preservation process. goodness.. you could see everything. both exterior and interior. and the interior was grosssss.... especially the brain.. god. and zeyan held a preserved brain and almost scared the wits out of me with it. grr. the exterior was kinda funny tho. haha. i guess alotta the people who donated their bodies were male, so yea, we were comparing the different sizes of the male organs, haha, and one even had golden pubic hair on it. =X
but there was this section of the exhibition that was so sad: the deformed foetuses. they traced the development of the egg after fertilisation from the first week onwards and it was really cute. but then there were bodies of deformed foetuses, with parts of the brain growing on its face.. arghhh... esther suggested we turn vegetarian after the visit. haha.
went to town after that to look for slippers. i guess today just isn't my day. first i couldn't find any slippers, and when i did, i couldn't find it in my size; wanted to eat calamari from LJS but they didn't have it anymore; went to BK to grab a mushroom swiss and they RAN OUT OF IT! like..what the hell! sigh. oh well. tmr will be a fun day, i hope.
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Tuesday, November 18, 2003
i feel so much better now after telling her all the stuff that happened last week, i mean, i was quite frustrated with alotta stuff. =) thanks girl, you're the best!
went to toa payoh after that and well well.. haha. guess transvestites don't just hang around in town. there was a whole rowwww of them! i felt so stupid smiling to myself after that. *shrugz* oh well. gonna go to bodyworlds tmr with esther and zeyan. can't wait. =)
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Saturday, November 15, 2003
went to school real early today for a clan meeting, followed by a house general meeting, followed by lunch with the house reps. a total of 16 of us were there?? =) went out with a few of them to queensway to check out house tshirts/jerseys/whatever. it's soooo draining walking around and not buying anything at all! in the end we left around 2+ coz russell and shaun both had a soccer friendly.
we all slept in the house room for a while i think.. woke up just in time to catch the match. too bad nj lost 2-1. oh well. tired. but i'm gonna read my book later.
granny's birthday tmr. i dread it. not her birthday, but meeting up with my relatives. never been close to them.. even though denzyl and i are the same age, i only knew his name like..this year? my family's so different from the rest of my maternal relatives, *shrugz* doesn't help that my sister may not be going coz she needs to study for her exams. sucks.
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Friday, November 14, 2003
By then Peiying was already there and we spent the entire night talking, playing silly games and pigging out at the airport. We made quite a din, I'm surprised no one told us off. haha. We did really silly things and actually rehearsed a few crying scenes for the people leaving. But honestly, I'll really miss them, especially peig and huili. =( Gonna meet kenneth for supper now, haven't seen him in ages. ciao.
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Tuesday, November 11, 2003
The soote season, that bud and bloom forth brings,
With green hath clad the hill and eke the vale,
The nightingale with feathers new she sings;
The turtle to her make hath told her tale.
Summer is come, for every spray now springs;
The hart hath hung his old head on the pale;
The buck in brake his winter coat he flings;
The fishes flete with new-repaired scale;
The adder all her slough away she slings;
The swift swallow pursueth the flies smale;
The busy bee her honey now she mings;
Winter is worn that was the flowers' bale.
And thus I see among these pleasant things
Each care decays, and yet my sorrow springs.
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Through the open french window the warm sun
lights up the polished breakfast-table, laid
round a bowl of crimson roses, for one -
a service of Worcester porcelain, arrayed
near it a melon, peaches, figs, small hot
rolls in a napkin, fairy rack of toast,
butter in ice, high silver coffee pot,
and heaped on a salver, the morning's post.
She comes over the lawn, the young heiress,
from her early walk in her garden-wood
feeling that life's a table set to bless
her delicate desires with all that's good,
that even the unopened future lies
like a love-letter, full of sweet surprise.
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Monday, November 10, 2003
stayed in school to play bball and badminton with huili and peiying, then after soccer training we went for dinner with shaun, yujie and russell. we bought stuff from newton food center *yum* and pigged out at russell's place. his place is pretty cool! it's so well kept! and his maid was really nice too! oh yea, we met his sister, an ex-aerius house rep! quite pretty! =)
touching up on PW ppt right now.. dammit.
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Sunday, November 09, 2003
spent the entire sunday rotting away. had lunch with my family though, and i talked to my sister about lots including well..yea..haha, guys! she overheard my conversation with jolin on the phone yesterday *i miss that girl* and yea, she started digging stuff that happened through out the year. well of course i made her promise not to tell my mum, otherwise i'm soooooooo screwed. she thinks my life's like a rollercoaster too..
i told her i go to clubs occasionally too. haha. she's kinda cool about it, i mean, she didn't make a big fuss, the way i thought she would. =)
didn't go for PW today. peggy had something on and the file's with her. yeps. that's it for now.
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You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p
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cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
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You are a true nature girl!
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hurts to know i'm not important enough for you to stay on but then again, i don't expect you should. i guess i'm not as good a friend as i wish i could be. i wish i could do more; i wish it was me and not you...
don't thank me. i really didn't do anything..and i'm so ashamed especially since you're still so nice to me.. i hate myself for not being good enough for you..
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Friday, November 07, 2003
met up with the anderson ppl today. i'm so glad i have them. i used to really resent going to anderson but right now, i'm glad there are people like huiling, esther, jiawen, wenjie etc to ground me. they make me think about deeper issues when i'm too caught up with the fun i'm having.. we talked about how jc has changed us and how the world is such an evil and complicated place... huiling said i haven't changed much since primary school, character anyway. i wish i could go back in time..back then things were so much simpler.. thank god for the subtle yet beautiful things..like the sky when the sun sets..
njc. it's a place where you never get another shot at things. it's at times like this that i feel damn shit. icky didn't even get to see the principal..god.. and no one got their appeal for 4 subjects.. basket.
it's jolin's birthday today. girl if you're reading this, HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! got lots to tell you.. haha.. catch up soon yea?
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Thursday, November 06, 2003
Conscious self | Overall self |
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Tuesday, November 04, 2003
today was a slack day though. i spent most of it hanging around in the house room and crapping and bitching with the house reps. then later in the evening before we went for the meeting, shaun, huili, peiying, yujie and mervin..we played badminton! and i think peiying and i make a pretty good team man! haha. we kept winning huili's group! *ahem ahem*
gonna finish up my PW now i guess.. gotta write my cards..and worry about chinese now. dammit. i wish it was over! #(%#!
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Monday, November 03, 2003
the mood was so solem and serious..and then icky turned around to look at us and gosh... she was crying so badly.. it made me feel so terrible after that.. i mean.. i felt so useless once again.. i didn't go for math, was just stoning in the house room...talked to tarng and fuqiang about the whole results shit.. felt so crappy.. i mean.. i don't want her to retain.. the whole lot of us have so much fun together!
i talked to mr tong abt pushing icky up and he said even a petition won't do much good.. dammit. i really hate this.. and huili's so sad coz of this and her other stuff too.. argh...
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Sunday, November 02, 2003
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i've got lots to tell lynette.. gonna stay up tonight to talk i think. i love that girl. aye. adios!
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Saturday, November 01, 2003
i was in the house room for a while coz i skipped math and physics lecture..then wei, kat, huili..all said they had to drop subjects. i guess to me, dropping a subject isn't really a big deal, i mean, i wouldn't cry over it. but when it was our turn.. i saw lynette cry..and francine too..god..i mean. of all people..francine.. *sigh* and during the earlier part of the day i was still talking crap and gossiping with her in class.. i wished at that point in time that it was i who had to drop a subject..not them.. i felt like crying seeing them like that..fran may be dropped from the team, lyn may go over to aussie, and wee gin..gosh.. she mugged so freaking hard.. it must've been a huge blow to her.. i really didn't know what to say.. i didn't even know if they wanted me around.. i'm worried for the touch ruggers too, coz yea..i saw meiling crying too.. dammit. and i'm so worried that one of the house reps might have to retain.. melissa told me she overheard the teachers talking abt one of us..and i felt like crap knowing that we could lose one of us.. cheemin told me later that peggy was trying so hard to control the waterworks.. and shiqin..she had to drop a subject too.. *sigh..*
on a brighter note, i guess all of us from anderson did pretty okay, with a few exceptions i guess.. we all managed to retain 4 subjects, and huiling..haha. not surprisingly, she's gonna take physics and math S papers. we went out after school, bought a couple of stuff for halloween and we tried big time to talk sense into michelle abt her ass of a boyfriend..exboyfriend..whatever. god. she's no longer the person i used to know.. all because of him.. what a waste of her time man.. and i heard stuff abt d alreadying going after someone new, so yea, i'm glad i made my choice yesterday when i told him to get over me.. felt so weird seeing him in town tho, i actually ran away. =X
shitttttttttifieeeeedddddd dayyyyyyyyyyy..........
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